What is Abuse?
One of the things I have learned over my years of working with victims of domestic violence, as well as the stories I have been privileged to learn from friends and clients, is that too many women don’t know when they are in an abusive relationship.
There are many reasons for this I believe. First and foremost, I believe women are socialized from a very young age in our society to place the needs of others before themselves. When this lesson takes root in our hearts and remains unchecked, and
we never learn how to set boundaries and express and assert our own needs in the context of a relationship, we may find ourselves exploited by people who are hard wired to take advantage of this quality. The clinical term for our need to place others ahead of ourselves regardless of whether that person demonstrates genuine care or concern for our emotional health or well being is “co- dependency.” Co-dependency is really just an inability to set healthy boundaries with people who are hurting us, in addition to making excuses for and enabling their bad behavior.
Co-dependent people tend to attract emotionally abusive partners. And most times we do not recognize the relationship as abusive, because we were raised by people who also exploited us emotionally, and we confuse “abuse” with “love”. This is a very real phenomenon. If as children our caretakers were unable to meet our basic emotional needs because of their own mental health issues, alcoholism or substance abuse, a personality disorder, or if we were victims of sexual or physical abuse by a trusted parent or other primary caretaker, we grow into adults who are unable to recognize dangerous and abusive partners because it is that very danger that is familiar to us. Instead of running away from abusive people we actually gravitate toward them and them toward us, unconsciously, like two very dysfunctional but familiar magnets.
Intimate partner abuse is anything that causes you to question your self worth. It can be painful and hurtful words or unprovoked and inexplicable rages. It can be when someone uses the silent treatment and ices you out for days or weeks as punishment for some perceived wrong. It can be that feeling you have which is like “walking on eggshells” because you are afraid to say or do the wrong thing that will set them off. It is when they isolate you from your friends and support system. It can be how they control the finances, or where you can go, what you can wear or who you can talk to. And of course abuse is physical or sexual violence in any form, even if they never lay a hand on you. Most times the abuser will confuse you by emotional manipulation, trying to convince you that these terrible things they do and say are “for your own good” or “because they love you.” The most dangerous and insidious things about emotional abuse is that the psychological damage is invisible to everyone on the outside and so very difficult to explain to those who have never experienced it.
I want to use this space to explore how abusive relationships form, how the cycle of abuse keeps victims trapped, and ultimately how you can find the strength to break free and reclaim your life. Thank you for coming on this journey with me, and please feel free to send me your questions and or comments to email@example.com.
ABOUT HOPE JAY:
A column for every woman who has ever questioned her self worth.
I choose to write about survival of intimate partner abuse because it’s a life altering journey too many women have endured. It may interest you to know that I am educated by way of a Masters in Social Work and a Law degree, and I have devoted my practice over 25 years to the field of domestic violence. I have written extensively on this topic, developed training and support groups, and I have prosecuted abusers and advocated through the legal system for victims of domestic violence in both criminal and family court. Some may even say I am an expert in this field.
But I think the thing that qualifies me to write this column more than any degree I hold or any professional experience I possess, is that I am also a survivor of intimate partner abuse. My intellect, experience and strength did not serve to make me immune to this experience. I hope by sharing my story that I can help other women overcome the shame that we feel as victims, and to find the strength to leave your abuser. There is a real opportunity as you push through this very difficult process to learn, and grow, and become stronger and more self aware; and ultimately, to heal. xoxoxoxo